The Freaknasty [J]

So here's my follow up to C's post from last night.

iGuy was definitely over til about 2am, which I was kicking myself when my alarm went off at 8 this morning. I definitely hit that snooze for quite a while.

And we had, what will now be referred to as the "Freak Nasty Conversation"

Not to be confused with they "Kyle Conversation", which iGuy and I have also already had.

Which as a quick tangent, I wasn't sure how I felt about. In our conversation late one night about our ex's, iGuy was able to say that he was happy with all of his old relationships, no regrets, and had remained civil with all but one. And it made me wonder why I couldn't say the same thing? Why can't I look back on these past relationships and be like, you know, they weren't half bad. Is there something wrong with me in relationships? I was convinced that maybe I just hadn't found the right guy, but now I've got the nagging feeling that it might be me too. I just don't know how to be in a relationship is what it is. I don't know how to let somebody feel that way about me. Hmmm, just a little food for thoughts.

Last night we definitely talked about sex. And looots of it. I was curious to get his straight male opinion on the topic. And let me tell you what, it was quite eye opening. All in all a great conversation. I actually blushed.

I NEVER BLUSH.

And yes C, 90% of communication is body language, and you know you have to let me know when I'm doing what so I can stop! I think the body language last night went a little past, ahem, friendship.

And I can't help but wonder, if S wasn't around giving me mind blowing sex and such, would I be so resistant or hesitant about iGuy?